Loneliness....

You always believe you are something unique. You can handle more than whats on the plate. You have handled long distance and loneliness pretty well; staying in another country and working your ass off on something that you love. Then it hits you, suddenly out of nowhere. When you have nothing to do; You have finished checking for the tenth time if the banana peppers have bloomed and if the photo on the wall is straight. Other women annoy you because you aren't like them waiting for you husband to be back for dinner. You are waiting for the random HR guy to call you back. You have a car and you can drive but you have none of those girl friends to hang out with. Its a city that you know no one in. No grad school buddies, no school friends, no athai, akka or anna either. Then your playlist tunes to playing Bharathiyar's lines in D.K.Pattamal's voice "Naam Irukkum Naadu Namathenbath Arinthom..Athu Namakke uriyatham endru unarnthom...." and then tears roll down uncontrollably.